I have recently found myself in a "state of stress" (s.o.s if you will). Upon reflection I recognized a controlling behavior that rears its ugly little head when I have lost connection to source (God if you will). For me this looks like forcing a situation to happen on MY terms and that leads to frustration, confusion, anxiety, physical pain, mental and emotional exhaustion...you get the picture!
So I recently asked a client on my table, "what drives you to get up every morning and keep doing what you do?" His answer was exactly what I needed to hear, "Seeing something come together, seeing individuals start as followers and end as leaders, and of course the financial freedom it gives my family to do the things we love while spending time together!" He then asked me why I asked. Through tears I said, "Because sometimes you loose sight of it..." That was my cue, that I was off track and I had forgotten what this mission was all about.
So here I am to share with you my WHY! I never started this adventure with myself in mind. It wasn't about the money ("Chase after the dream don't chase after the money" -Old Dominion), it wasn't about my name on a sign, or pride. It was about this burning inspiration inside of me. This vision to create a place where individuals would feel nurtured, where they would come to breathe and heal, space for them to reveal their true gifts and power, time to gain clarity. So often we hide in discomfort and play victim to our situation, when all the while we have grit and tenacity that is just waiting to be unleashed! There is no better high then seeing someone have that break through ah ha moment, and knowing that God's work is being done! I LOVE SEEING PEOPLE SUCCEED, I LOVE SEEING PEOPLE GROW, and I LOVE MYSTICISM!!!!
I have realized it is time to evaluate and shift direction. I heard this last night and I love it..."I looked to see where everyone else was going, and I went in the opposite direction!" It reminds me of another saying I like: "Be careful when blindly following the masses, sometimes the M is silent." Ladies and gentlemen, look around...who surrounds you? Who are you looking to lead you? What drives you in the direction you are going? When you sift through illusion and dysfunction and breathe inspiration (breath of spirit) what do you hear? What do you feel? For me? I feel like it is time to stand in my power, BE one with, and no matter what direction everyone else is going...stay the course.